Why do I practice Yoga? 🤔
In a nutshell, cos it keeps me SANE 😜
My reasons for, and the styles of practice over the years have ebbed and flowed. When I was 19 I found Bikram Yoga, I loved the intensity of Bikram 🥵 and then I discovered and developed a love for a strong Vinyasa Flow 🤸🏼 but I was naturally flexible, after doing martial arts and gymnastics in school I could quite easily do most of the poses. I didn’t have to try too hard. I was moving through the poses on a physical level. Just the Asana practice.
I was that person who got up and walked out during Savasana 👀
These days… most of the time my body craaavess a yummy, sensual Slow Flow or a meditative Yin 🧘♀️ I can sit in stillness.
Why the change? 🤷🏼♀️
Well since my teens, (actually early childhood) my nervous system has been disregulated. Because of multiple traumatic experiences I was sooo disassociated and detached from my body. I couldn’t feel anything unless it was anger! I would abuse my body, either trying not to feel, or to feel better…between working out and working flat out, drinking, partying, substance abuse, toxic and abusive relationships, people pleasing…you get the drift
I still suffer from disassociation at times, even now. But it’s taken YEARS of work to get to a point where I not only LOVE my body, but I LISTEN to her. I no longer feel numb or need to distract myself from feeling REAL emotions 😍
Yoga has allowed me to SLOW DOWN, and to FEEL 🏼
I am still working on feeling safe within my body… healing is a journey and it’s not linear! But Yoga is how I’m getting there, and if I can do it, so can you 🙏🏼✨💖